Truly,
he felt there had to be
something
more in life than what he was getting.
That wasn't the case, of course,
as the more he took from life
the more he felt he needed.
Experiences have a means
to make a person feel small.
Small is exactly what he was.
Small, the way everyone is.
The conscious perspective of being
however,
made it that much more difficult to live with.
He admired people's ability to get lost
within their trivial existences
the way they put importance in
the shoes they wore
the cars they drove
the way they looked while ordering
their fucking coffee
while he just picked the clothes on top
of the clean pile
and hoped it matched.
He looked at art
and tried to understand the emotion
behind the paint strokes.
He listened to music
attempting to feel something new.
He listened to other's problems
with the hope
the sincere hope
that he could understand humanity
a little bit better.
But after a lifetime of doing these things,
he still knew
how very small he is
and how very small
he will always be.
-Dustin S. Stover
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